Helter Skelter and talking with the man upstairs

Having a crazy morning at work this morning! I got in and was so calm and collected - now that's all down the drain with the hectic nature of everything today!!!
Anyway, went out with friends last night and was feeling really pumped afterward about how God is working in my life at the moment.
I'm going through some massive changes in my life and my faith is on a pretty steep developmental curve at the moment so I'm learning a thousand new things about God every day that I never knew. Anyway, basically, I had a really enriching time and an amazing conversation on the way home with one of my work friends who is from a Catholic home but is only just strating to question why she thinks what she does about the world and morals etc. I was able to vocalise a lot of the things I am learning at the moment and the things God is teaching me through my hurts and highs.
I drove home listening to Triple J and feeling like I was on a pretty big spiritual high. I thanked God over and over again for His continual movement in my life. I must admit though, that half way home I had to turn off the radio to concentrate on what I was praying. I sometimes do that thgouh when I want to talk to God. Silence can be good becasue it forces me to be honest and raw. Talking to God and spending time in prayer while I'm listening to worship songs can give me a false feeling of closeness to God. I don't say this lightly and I truly beleive that God works thorugh music to draw me closer to him, but for me it can defintely be a distraction. Life is not as beautiful as some songs suggest. I don't always feel like I want to say "God here I am, I give it all to you, you are amazing, I'm yours, I live for you, I adore you" etc. Sometimes, I just need to turn it all off, sit in silenece and talk out loud to god and say things more along the lines of "God, I am upset. I don't understand what just happened. Please help me to feel at peace about it amnyway. Take away all my crap God. I want it to be gone from my life. I'm trying God to do the right thing. I've got a long way to go. I'm not sure if I'm really serious, but I'm pretty sure that my life is yours. I want you to be in all the bits of my life that are good, and that suck and in between. I'm working on it God and I just wanted to acknowledge you because I can tell that you are working on me. I thank you for listening." That kind of thing. Just a bit more honest and in my own words.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I just realised what a bla bla that all was. I've been listening to a lot of Oasis this morning. Helter Skelter has been playing for the majority of this entry and it's made me feel urgent and crazy. Now, as Cake have begun singing "Short Skirt, Long Jacket" I am slowing down and feeling funky. The words are nto so cool though, seeing as we had quite a heated discussion last night about the oversexualisation of children and the superficiality of society when it comes to sexuality and image. short skirt long jacket. hmmmmm some people jut have different values I guess.
Well, none of that made sense :S

Father God, whatever is going on in my bizarre brain, please help me express myself in a meaningful way during this exercise. I want to get as much out of it as possible. Please guide my thoughts and keep me close to you while I attempt to delve deeper into this topic. Thank you for your continued blessings you shower on me every day. You're so good to me.