Listening to the Grey's Anatomy soundtrack. Never heard it before and it's awesome! Such variety. I'm blown away at the talent God has placed inside people.

Things are settling down a bit today. I've been thiking about this whole music thing...

I'm starting to think it's not all about what you're listening to or not, but how restricted your 'playlist' is.

God is the creator of the most beautiful things I can possibly imagine and more. He is imaginative, unique in his approach and has created an endless variety of creatures, environments, phenomenons and other breath-taking miracles in this world and beyond.
How then, can we sit here and say "I only enjoy this one thing, I only listen to worship music, I only wear pink, I only eat maccas." ??

Not sure what I'm wanting to say but basically it comes down to - don't RESTRICT yourself. We weren't designed to do that...
If I spend a week saying "I'm only listening to one type of music" then I get frustrated and angry and pent up because I've restricted one of my main creative outlets. God designed me to enjoy the miriad of amazing gifts he gave every single person. We are all unique. How can I say that I don't listen to secular stuff because it deosn't praise God? That's rediculous. Just because a song is not explicitly about God, does it mean it doesn't glorify him? Did he not place amazing abilities in these people? Music is God's creation.

This doesn't mean that it's all good for us and I'm beginning to realise that, just like many other God-created things, the devil can use it against us right? I know full-well that the devil is even present in church sometimes. He's not picky. And he also knows that creativity is something that is part of all of us as created beings. why wouldn't he try to attack us there as well as everywhere else?

I'm becoming more aware of the imortance to know what I'm listening to. And to tell the truth - it can be pretty scary to google the lyrics to your favourite song. I've often found myself singing words that I can't beleive are coming out of my mouth. If I were talking, they would never be the things I would say.

Listening to some of this music I usually avoid is really educating me in a lot of ways. and that's so important. We need to be making educated decisions. Research a bit. Google the words to your favourite songs. Be aware of the material that's contained in the music you listen to and make informed decisions as to what you will stop listening to or what you'll listen to more.... more thoughts on this soon. Just caught up with work!!!

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I am feeling down today. Nothing that anyone could sing to me could make me feel better. Nothing I have on my iPod is helping me at all. I've spent most of my day flicking from song to song.
I'm also angry because for the first time in a long time, I succumbed to a temptation I had thought I'd conquered and dealt with. I know we make mistakes, but seriously, I feel like I went back twenty steps. I drove home last night listening to 106.5 love song dedications becasue it was the only station playing something that wasn't incredibly fast and happy. don't you hate it when you need to be soothed and all that plays are bizarre songs by Kylie Minogue. Man o man. I have to leave work now so I'm siging out but basically I just wanted to jot this down because I'm feeling pretty defeated today and so annoyed I can't listen to the type of music I would normally play to sooth me and renew me when I'm frustrated or sad. So annoyed >:(

A little light on the subject

I feel like I've had my head in a bucket. Do you know how enlightening it is to broaden your horizons? Read this:

I've been looking for you
Searching for something new
You keep my
feet on the ground
As you make my world turn around
Keep sending me
signals
Don't let me fall by the way
And while the worldIs turning right
You show me the way
To your heart
'Cause when you call my name
It's like the world
Is turning right...

These are the lyrics to Yothu Yindi's song "World Turning".
And then what about this:

It started out with such a simple clue
And then we talked and so the feeling
grew
I looked deep into the heart of you it's a
Mesmerising view
It's
the strangest thing to feel this way
All that your love brings only
complicates
I don't remember ever feeling this way
If I got you to thank
then you be praised
It's the strangest thing

That's from Bernard Fanning's (Powderfinger front singer) song "The Strangest Thing"
And another:

Those little things you say
When words mean so much
You never back
down
And they all shy away
You always listen to me
And what do I care
to get me through these sleepless nights
And what do I have to hold when no
one’s there to hold me tight
And what do I see
The only thing that gets
me through this is I feel
and I feel you

Those lyrics are from a song by 3 Doors Down called "I feel you"

Helter Skelter and talking with the man upstairs

Having a crazy morning at work this morning! I got in and was so calm and collected - now that's all down the drain with the hectic nature of everything today!!!
Anyway, went out with friends last night and was feeling really pumped afterward about how God is working in my life at the moment.
I'm going through some massive changes in my life and my faith is on a pretty steep developmental curve at the moment so I'm learning a thousand new things about God every day that I never knew. Anyway, basically, I had a really enriching time and an amazing conversation on the way home with one of my work friends who is from a Catholic home but is only just strating to question why she thinks what she does about the world and morals etc. I was able to vocalise a lot of the things I am learning at the moment and the things God is teaching me through my hurts and highs.
I drove home listening to Triple J and feeling like I was on a pretty big spiritual high. I thanked God over and over again for His continual movement in my life. I must admit though, that half way home I had to turn off the radio to concentrate on what I was praying. I sometimes do that thgouh when I want to talk to God. Silence can be good becasue it forces me to be honest and raw. Talking to God and spending time in prayer while I'm listening to worship songs can give me a false feeling of closeness to God. I don't say this lightly and I truly beleive that God works thorugh music to draw me closer to him, but for me it can defintely be a distraction. Life is not as beautiful as some songs suggest. I don't always feel like I want to say "God here I am, I give it all to you, you are amazing, I'm yours, I live for you, I adore you" etc. Sometimes, I just need to turn it all off, sit in silenece and talk out loud to god and say things more along the lines of "God, I am upset. I don't understand what just happened. Please help me to feel at peace about it amnyway. Take away all my crap God. I want it to be gone from my life. I'm trying God to do the right thing. I've got a long way to go. I'm not sure if I'm really serious, but I'm pretty sure that my life is yours. I want you to be in all the bits of my life that are good, and that suck and in between. I'm working on it God and I just wanted to acknowledge you because I can tell that you are working on me. I thank you for listening." That kind of thing. Just a bit more honest and in my own words.
Anyway, I'm rambling. I just realised what a bla bla that all was. I've been listening to a lot of Oasis this morning. Helter Skelter has been playing for the majority of this entry and it's made me feel urgent and crazy. Now, as Cake have begun singing "Short Skirt, Long Jacket" I am slowing down and feeling funky. The words are nto so cool though, seeing as we had quite a heated discussion last night about the oversexualisation of children and the superficiality of society when it comes to sexuality and image. short skirt long jacket. hmmmmm some people jut have different values I guess.
Well, none of that made sense :S

Father God, whatever is going on in my bizarre brain, please help me express myself in a meaningful way during this exercise. I want to get as much out of it as possible. Please guide my thoughts and keep me close to you while I attempt to delve deeper into this topic. Thank you for your continued blessings you shower on me every day. You're so good to me.

Goodmorning Tuesday

It's day 2 and I... oh sheesh have to race to a meeting. Will type some stuff in a litle while

Ick

Feeling so drained! Not sure if this has to do with anything. Whatever anyway, because it's not up to me to analyse but sheesh I'm havng a less than ok kind of day. Nai asked me earlier if something was wrong because I seemed down. She's right. I can't put my finger on it. I'm just less than impressed with a couple of things. I'm also feeling frustrated and short-fused. could just be a bad day. sheesh.

Day 1

Ok, so I've decided to try and type this entry in while actually listening to my iPod. Hopefully it won't be too distracting.
Run DMC are blasting into my ears currently and I'm pretty annoyed that I can't just take out my earphones and listen to the Christian radio station that is playing in my office.
Ok, here goe anyway.
This morning when I arrived at work, I realised I left my bible somewhere and I can't quite remember where. Sheesh. I feel a bit vunerable knowing it's not here with me. My bible's pretty much my lifeline so I'm going to have to spend a fair bit of time in prayer today to help me feel close to God.
Hang on, rewind...
A bit about me - I love music. Like LOVE music. It's definitely my main communicative outlet and really effects me emotionally and spiritually. I know this right? and I still agreed to do this experiment where I... for week, only listen to music that has no Christian content and then the following week, I can only listen to God-inspired worship music.
Sounds weird right? Yep it is and a little extreme. But I'm really interested to see how it effects me. Especially knowing my tight connection with musical expression.
Anyhoo, I'm rambling. Basically I don't think I'm goign to enjoy this - only because it's restrictive. It's important though that I don't make assumptions or try to think too much about it.
So anyway, this morning has been ok. I listened to Triple J in the car on the way to work. I usually listen to a bit of 103.2 or listen to a christian CD. It was ok. I really enjoyed the music on the radio this morning.
Now I'm at work, the iPod has gone in and it's not too bad. I like a really wide variety of music - everything from Run DMC through to Def Leppard, James Blunt, Bjork, Sex Pistols and Alanis Morrisette. So it's weird and mashy and eclectic.
Alanis is ninging to me at the moment. She's telling me all about a broken relationship and how she is so thankful for all the awful things that have been done to her. I'm pretty sure she's being sarcastic...
Anyway, I'll log in a bit later on and let you know how things are going. So far so good. Just tryign to enjoy the music. Love my music...